new year, new...something!

Its almost as if the drudgery and resentment from last semester has forced its way into the mind of this semester. Aren't new years supposed to bring good tidings and all that?!

Wishing there was a large rubber eraser to take away the wasted hours of thought presiding in my head is too much to hope for. So that a mental moving forward could take place,
       {suppose that's what prayer is for}
To relinquish all your worries and doubts up and away from your earthly self, so that they will be taken care of..so much more than they ever could be if stuck inside by a mental roadblock. yet even then, there is worry..
      {suppose that's what faith is for}

Give it up
all of it
every sigh, frustration
worry or sense of hopelessness
of never finishing and
not being right
send it up
and away

still, it's hard to take advantage of this free service
time constraints or personal vendetta always seems to get in the way.

I wish i could eat,pray,love my way to resolution, peace
but that's only just a million to one true story turned book turned film.
still, a new idea at least
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realizing the other day that i'm further away from an art degree than i had anticipated caught me off gaurd..i was hoping one ( maybe one and a half ) more yrs..but it might be more. I've been thinking though..this semester is dedicated to that other major of mine. Bogged down with political science, history, english (no french this time though, very happy about that), that perhaps next semester; i will lend my time to art..every class (prob 18-21 credit hours worth) of getting this completed! and then also the summer spent with two or three class..
maybe then i could finish on my once expected timline, somehow my mental timelines never seem to work out, maybe they are also stuck in a mental roadblock....

anyway, school rant out and set aside..should probably be sent Up, but who has the time really...


i never know how to end this things, so here it is...